It really hit me this evening that my girl is starting Kinder in 5 weeks. I'm so excited for her and yet kind of sad to not have her home with me as much. It's odd to think that someone other than her dad and I are now going to have a big influence in her life. The past five years have certainly gone by faster than I thought they would and I'm sure are going to go by even faster.

It's been almost 6 months and I must say they have been the longest 6 months of my life. J fusses for almsost every feeding at some point and almost every time I put him to bed. It really wears on me. I hope the next 6 go by a little faster. Having 2 older ones I'm fully aware that they don't get "easier" it's just different, however, it's got to be better than how difficult it still is. Ahh!!! C is a pretty easy baby though so at least I don't have 2 challenging babies at once. :)

One More Thing

I've had Richard Marx "Should've Known Better" stuck in my head all day. That is now my gift to you and it will hopefully be purged from mine. "Darn you VH1 80's videos!" (as I shake my fist in the air) :)

Just Awake

It's 2:30 in the a.m. I wonderfully passed out on the couch sometime between 8:30 and 9 woke up around 1 a.m.ish. As I jumped up to make formula, load the dishwasher to run it and make coffee, I check in on the babes. C is just wide awake like it's 6 a.m. and time to get up. At least he's happy...right? Yeah, it's now 2:38 and that boy is still just up. J jumped in on the action and was up crying for about 45 minutes. "This is just for a season. This is just for a season," is the mantra I'm telling myself over and over. I will thankfully never have to go through a baby stage again and somehow my older 2 made it out to the other side and bring me so much joy. The big challenge is to find joy in the now.

Hopefully, good night! (as I typed that I can hear C squealing in delight from his crib...)

Ground Hog Day

I don't know who's seen the movie Ground Hog Day. Basically Bill Murray keeps repeating the same day over and over. I can really relate to that! I'm dreading going to bed because I don't know how in the world I'm going to do tomorrow. I just don't know and I don't have it in me.

Set It and Forget It?

I'm developing a passion for crock potting. I'm researching them and recipes for them in hopes of making my life "easier." Mid-nap I was having to resettle the babies and my thoughts drifted toward the fact that I don't seem to produce "easy" babies. Singly or in twos, breast-fed or bottle-fed, I feel Mike and I must be genetically predisposed to producing gassy babies who aren't the best nappers. On the flip side, generally speaking, once they are down for the night, that's it. I usually don't hear from them again. I started melding the two things together. Wouldn't it be great if the baby or babies were like a set it and forget it crock pot? Like at nap time, put them down for a nap and two hours or so later, Bing! they're up. Or when it's time for a bottle, you place said bottle in their mouth and 15 minutes later, Bing! they are done with no fuss. Unfortunately, that is not my life, but it is fun to muse over it and give myself a little chuckle. :o)

Weary

I am tired and weary. I feel like I could weep and breakdown at a moments notice. I also know that this too shall pass. Just needed to complain for a moment.